One Inch Closer to babysteph

exams r getting nearer & nearer….but i’m still rushing my assignment….tink by the time i finish my assignment, i’ve less than 1 week to study, for 3 papers….. 3 papers which all need alot of memorisation….siao liao la!!

觉得自己很“神”！竟然能够弄得自己剩这么少时间温书！at the start of every semester, i tell myself, i must change, i must not be a super last-minute slacker.. but now, 6 semesters have passed in nie, and i’ve given up..i wil nvr ask myself to change again, 因为我知道我是做不到的。

i am lazier than others; i need to sleep more than others; i’m unwilling to start early like others; i’ve less energy than others; i dun hav savings or rich bfs/hubbies like others, my parents r not rich and they r old, so i hav to teach tuition to earn my expenses => less time than others; i’m unwilling to cut down my expenses like others, i still take cabs like nobody’s business, stil go for pedicures, stil go ktv, stil sm*ke, bla bla… => i hv no choice but to work & study at same time => less time than some others; i’m unwilling to neglect my cats, so i hv to spend time playing with them => less time than some others; i’m unwilling to give up miting my bf so often => less time than others..

hw 2 change with my stubborn-ness????

i do get frustrated at myself for all these, sometimes…but datz me…i love myself for some things, yet hate myself for certain things..haha..矛盾。。。不必理我说什么，我自己也不太清楚。。只是在此发发牢骚。。