One Inch Closer to babysteph

a friend commented yesterday that i sounded depressed in most of my recent blog posts…my 1st reaction was "got meh?"…. well, maybe i’m more of a pessimist? i tink more of bad thing rather than gd things..or maybe itz just dat i’m not used to writing happy things on my blog, cos my blog is more like a place to let me 发泄 my unhappiness & anger. as for happiness, i prefer to keep it in my heart & 慢慢品尝！

but here i am..reli feelin quite unhappy now…not depressed, but just unhappy & worried…somehow dis end of the year of dog is quite unlucky for my family. somehow, diz few days, i suddenly can’t wait for new yr to come, hoping that all the unluckiness will leave my family for good after the new yr!

mum was admitted to hospital on sat late at nite. she reli scared us out of our wits! she’s been healthy all along, doing exercises regularly, no high blood, nothing, all healthy, then suddenly almost fainted in the house & stuffs… bro & i were so lost, din noe wat to do, so called the ambulance.. aft checking, the doctor @ the hospital oso dunno wat went wrong..

somehow i dun reli trust government hospitals…even @ A & E, all patients had to wait about 2 hrs b4 getting to c the doc. all they ever do was to test blood, test blood pressure, heart rate, blood glucose, nothing else.. so if there’s nothing wrong with all diz tests, they can’t reli tell watz the problem with the patient either. and some nurses’ attitude were not that gd either.

good thing is mum seems ok now, hopefully there’s nothing wrong with her…but心里还是很不踏实, when i was out yesterday, received a phone call from my brother, and my 1st thinking was: had something happen to mum again?? reli worried to leave her alone at home, after wat happened the other nite..just wanna keep an eye on her as often as possible.

then last nite, found my cat, feifei injured again… tink he fought with other cats, but lost, so all the wounds on him made him so painful he couldn’t even eat. ok, some of u may think, he’s just a cat, don have to be so gan jeong..but i treat my cats as my family, my children…so it explains the worry, the heartache..

well, maybe i haven’t experienced happenings that r reli depressing or causing real sadness, like some of u out there… but i reli reli reli reli dun wish anything unfortunate to fall on my family & loved ones. they r the most precious in my life, and i reli dun like the feeling of having to worry, to fear that something’s gonna take them away from me, or something unfortunate gonna befall them. if i can choose, i’d rather itz me & not them. i just want them to be healthy always..