stressed….=(
September 11, 2007 by babysteph
work’s very stressful nowadays, esp dis term… making me feeling very stressed, very tired diz days… itz making me sick too…
i’m sick today, took MC, hopefully can accomplish some work at home. finally the chinese 7th month is over! evey yr, i HATE the chinese 7th month, bcos of the burning, dat makes my nose feel terrible. hopefully, the air clears up abit, and my nose will gradually get well. been having flu, or sinus, on & off for weeks.
stressed….bcos there’s lesson observation coming up nxt monday. stressed bcos dis term is so short, i’m worrying about not being able to complete the syllabus. stressed bcos i’m worrying about not having enuf time to do revision with my students. actually, i tink ultimately, the thing datz making me most stressed is the lesson observation on monday bah..i feel so tensed up bcos of the stupid observation. last time practicum owiz get observed, got so used to it, i din feel a thing. but…last 2 yrs in BA no practicum at all, haven’t been observed for more than 2 yrs le…i bet aft nxt monday, i gonna feel relieved, relaxed & happy!
even my student can feel my stress. yesterday a P5 boy asked me, "老师，你最近是不是很忙？你很像比较容易不耐烦。" shit lor…datz unprofessional of me! i thot i was acting usual. but somehow, the more sensitive students could feel it. aiya, also bcos some of the students in dat class are so disrespectful lah! being nice to them doesn’t pay well. dey take advantage of my "nice-ness" towards them, and some of them r so so so so so rude & disrespectful.
there r 2 particular gals in tat class who r "not sweet at all"! usually the girls r very sweet, and even if they r not listening to my lesson, they’ll just b day-dreaming or drawing. once in awhile i close one eye. but DIZ 2 GALS r real irritating! one actually changed her plc when i was facing the computer. they r owiz talking & the one who changed plc never looks at the textbk1… wat the hell??!!! y nowadays students so bold & disrespectful one??? at least shud come & ask me permission to change plc right? if her results r fantastic, fine, i shall close one eye. but NO! these 2 gals have the worst results among the girls.
some of them, when i scold them, they don even feel guilty or embarrassed. they can still smile & laugh! OMG!!! last time teachers call our names, we alr so scared. teachers call our names only, we would feel like finding a hole to hide our faces. but nowadays, some students don even think they r wrong…i owiz tell my students "教你们一年，我会短命十年。" owiz falling sick is alr a good example of my life getting shortened, wahaha….
haiz…sometimes i see the students nowdays… i reli reli reli think s’pore’s future is FINISHED! so once in awhile, i reli think of migrating..but where to…
