One Inch Closer to babysteph

itz saturday…another day which i spent my hrs in school doing work…only reached aft lunch..wud have been there earlier to clear my wrk, if not bcos i was too tired & overslept..

not sure y i’m feeling down…just feeling a little depressed… probably bcos of wrk… am i just inefficient or wat??? i just can’t finish my work… been staying in school for almost 13 hrs everyday & gg back on sat aftnoons. but the work is piling up, higher & higher…

even sadder to say, marking pupils’ work is not priority nowadays. admin work is. datz the saddest part about being a teacher. everyday i’ll have to clear admin work, and at the end of the day, when i have time aft clearing admin work, then it’ll be marking… a teacher said today, and i somehow agree: 很无奈，很悲哀，but it is a fact that admin work is not important BUT urgent, and marking bks & preparing for teaching is important BUT not urgent.

sad to say, but it is a fact that we are kinda graded by the admin work we do. do you complete certain forms & hand in on time, do you plan for events, how successful ur event is, walking up & down talking to pple related to the events, etc, etc… i no longer panic when my marking piles up, i only feel helpless & miserable..

recently been real busy for the scouts investiture nxt weekend. i feel guilty that i haven’t done much for my music dept… just took up the position of music coordinator, reli hope i can show some results and not end up doing nothing much. i reli must learn to multi-task… to juggle scouts events & music stuffs…

and just when i’m so so so stressed & busy, i heard something not so pleasant. someone was asking why am i the music coordinator & not her… dis is not the 1st time she’s making noise. fr wat i know, she has thrown tat qn to at least 3 pple. there shud b more, itz just that it hasn’t got to my ears. y not her… she shud be asking the management, and not colleagues. wat else she said besides asking the qn, i reli dunno. maybe some things bad about me?

itz not upsetting, but it is reli bothering me. we used to be in a beta relationship, b4 i was made the music coordinator. she reli tinks i want to be the music coordinator??? i was appointed, not that i asked for the position. i just hope she stops gg ard saying things behind my back. i wont do anything yet, i shall use my capability to prove that i have the ability to be the music coordinator.

recently yan asked wat i wan for my bday. aft thinking, i said: i don lack anything now. all i need is SLEEP & TIME.

i still love my job, i enjoy having work to do, having chances & opportunities to prove myself. i noe there r bound to be hiccups here & there, now & then… just hope i can take things in my stride. i’m still a beginning teacher, i shall learn to handle things as they come.

something happy for me to share is, my P6s are so sweet. they actually remember my bday, and i’ve received presents & cards from some of them. sometimes they simply make my day! i’m thankful i have such sweet students, and of coz the sweet colleagues & khakis who has always been there to give me support. i love you people!